// Self Improvement.//
Starts NOW.
Like….Why Sit Back & Watch Those Around You Do All These Good Things & Grow, While You’re Just Static? Makes No Sense Right? At Least I Think So. But, It’s Time For Some REAL Changes. If Not Now Then When? I Feel Like I’ve Told Myself This SO Many Times Before….But This Time I’m Serious. My Motivation? The Look On Peoples Faces When They See The New Person I’ve Become. I’m Already Prepared To Lose Friends To The Change. It Won’t Be Too Hard, Because In My Mind I Already Have……..
(via dumbonem)
// 2 More Weeks.//
I’m SO Glad School Is Almost Over, I’m Ready To Go Home Or To Vegas For The Summer. Anywhere But East Lansing & I’m Good. My ‘Friends’ Are Driving Me Crazy. I’m Losing ALL Patience For People With These Bad Attitides, Especially When I’m The One With The ‘Bad Attitude’ For Trying To Set Someone Straight About It. This Year Has Been TERRIBLE! Haven’t Been Happy About Anything Either Semester. Haven’t Done ANYTHING All Semester. I’m Done With Choir. Everyone Does The Same Thing, Hangs Out With The Same People, Dresses The Same, Talks The Same, I CAN NOT DEAL! I May Not Have The Biggest Personality But At Least I Can Say I’m Leaving The Same Way I Came….AS MYSELF.
Ugh, I’m So Over This Year.
Hopefully My Life Gets Better Soon, I’d Hate To Reach A REAL Low Point & Crash.
This Is NOT What I’m Used To.
Oh, Today’s My Birthday.
// Delete.//
Had To Get Rid Of Some Posts, Don’t Need The Thoughts Or Memories Anymore.
Great Way To Delete Unnecessary People….
Kay Dané: I don’t know why I tend to do this. I push people away. Still trying...
I don’t know why I tend to do this. I push people away. Still trying to figure out the exact reason as to why I do it. Sometimes its intentional. Sometimes I don’t like people getting to close to me. I’m vulnerable at the most. So maybe its because I’m an easy target for hurt.
Maybe its…
My Life Is SO Boring!
I’m Not Passionate About Anything.
I Don’t Have Any REAL Hobbies.I Don’t Feel Like I Have Any Real Friends. I Don’t Have Any REAL Friends.
I’m Bored With My Life Right Now…
The Fact That My ‘Friends’ & I Don’t Do Anything Fun/Different EVER, Doesn’t Help.
IDK What To Do.
I Have So Much Free Time But I Do NOTHING With It.
I Know A Significant Amount Of People Around Campus But I’m Too Shy Something To Make Any Other Friends Or Hang With Other People.
Something Needs To Change, IMMEDIATELY!
But I Guess The Only Way For A Change Happen Is For Me To Take Action.
Easier Said Than Done…
// I’m tired of being sad. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of feeling empty inside. I’m tired of feeling worthless. I’m tired of feeling stuck. I’m tired of feeling crazy. I’m tired of being alone. I’m tired of yelling. I’m tired of pretending. I’m tired of dreaming of a life I will never have. I’m tired of missing things. I’m tired of missing people. I’m tired of remembering. I’m tired of wishing I could start all over. I’m tired of not being able to just let go. I’m tired of faking it. I’m tired of being different. I’m tired of being angry. I’m tired of needing help. I’m tired of always wondering when God is finally going to let me be happy. Most of all, I’m just I’m tired of being tired.//
(Source: dollfaceddevil)
// Who Can I Depend On?//
Answer? Myself & God.
I Don’t Have The Best Relationship With My Family.
I’d Say It’s Mostly Good.
Good As In; We Don’t Really Talk, Know Anything About Eachother, Live Under The Same Roof But Don’t Spend Time With Eachother, etc. There’s Nothing Bad Going With/Between Us….So I Guess We’re Okay.
But Ever Since I Can Remember.
There’s Always Been An Event Where Me & Another Member Of My Family, Specifically Either My Dad, Mom, & Or 2 Out Of My 3 Brothers, Have Gotten Into It For WHATEVER Reason. & They Somehow Find The Most Hurtful Things To Say About Me…. I’m Usually Left In Tears.
I Guess This Is Why I Try To Seem Like This Tough Person. Nonchalant Attitude About Everything. Like Nothing Other People Can Say Affects Me. Which Could Be Good In Some Cases, But Also Bad…
I’ve Somehow Found A Way To Hide/Hold Back My Emotions.
I’ve Been Okay With It For Years.
But I’m Becoming Overwhelmed Now.
I Really Need To Do Some Soul-Searching.
I Can’t……..No, Won’t Continue To Live Like This.
Maybe When I Truly Find Myself, I’ll Be Able To Mend/Develop Stronger Relationships With Other People.
For The Times When I Have No One To Talk To, No One Who Will Understand Me, When I'm Feeling Down, Lonely, Or Like I Need A Friend & I Can Find Not One...
